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2022.01.22 18:43 Clear_Fig_7410 STRANGER IN THE STRANGE LAND & LIFE
It is now o'clock, time to do something, getting out of the bed is a start, will cross that bridge later, first got to meditate on the reality of the great outdoors, the wilderness teaming with wild humans, trust no one, not even yourself, without proper check, for its a trap leading to nothing good, in God we trust.
Today is the day of rest, Shabbat, as is any other day at my age of half a century, yet my grandfather is over 90 acts as though time does not exist, or death for that matter, puts me in awe of his tenacity and endurance, courage and stamina.
Whatevers the case may be, am sticking around until at least he is done playing with life, which by the looks of it could be never. So I wait. Meanwhile I have wrote thick enough bible of my own, mades some pictures, fought some battles, won some wars, nothing to write home about. They are hard to impress simple folks.
I am familiar stranger in the strange land. Everybody knows me yet they know nothing about me, not even my glory days. They don't care as I don't. That is not interesting in retrospect. In Russia I was foreigner as a Jew with a German name, that of the wife of Hitler, sure has inspired a few jokes, but it made people smile so I didn't mind that much.
The matriarchal Babylonian Talmudic Rabbinical Jews want nothing to do with me after they found out, to their horror, that my mother's mother is Ukrainian, even though her father is Jewish, who was the only survivor after Ponary massacre around Vilnius, Lithuania or around 100,000 Jews. He run away and met my grandmother who was the only survivor in her village near Kiev that got starved by the Stalin's blockade called Holodomor.
Thus am still part of the original patriarchal Abrahamic Judaism of which I think am the last High Priest, the Cohen title is passed on the father's side, my father being full blooded Jewish Cohen. I am first born to my mom and dad, yet my dad has always claimed, on a few occasions we got to meet and live together, that I may have an older brother, from some French girl visiting Moscow at a time who reportedly sent him a news that she had a boy before falling off the face of the earth, since my dad has nither seen her or heard from her ever again. His story.
My mom's story is that he invited her to audition for a movie part, his parents were working for Mosfilm studio, during which he supposedly forced himself on her, she is being virgin 18 years of age with her parents away in India for three years, her father worked as head engineer for the Ministry of Heavy Industry of Soviet Union helping India with building hydroelectric plant, thus she got pregnant with me.
She wanted to do an abortion but at a time the procedure was barbaric hence the doctors warned her that if she goes on with it she will have no other children. She decided to keep me. When the grandparents have returned, they were outraged and heartbroken to find their daughter with a child out of marriage.
Those were simpler times. My grandparents on my mother's side married once, both had only one job, my grandmother was secretary at the Russian White House, from where I would go to the pioneer camps later. My grandmother did like me and would ofter lock me up in the washroom and turn off lights. I was petrified. However, when I was a baby, some old women approached my mom and told her the prophecy that your son should grow up to be a great man. So, yes, no pressure here whatsoever.
So back to being from nowhere. The Ukranians go by the father's side, so am not qualified to be Ukranian either. In Russia I had to hide being Jewish first, my birth certificate was altered to indicate that am Russian. However, after a fight that happened between my father and my mother's man at that time, she had all bunch, shortly after my birth, which made it to the newspapers for some reason, my birth certificate was vandalized with the Russian erased and instead of it Jew written in chicken scratch letters. I still have it to this day.
Later, as I hit my puberty, I have discovered, to my confusion, that am also gay. At first I felt alone in such feelings but by 14 I was approached by a 20 ears guy in the showers on the swimming pool where I was while skipping school. To my relief and amazement the realization that am not alone in this. However, I was alone, and in Russia being me was again the law punishable by death. So, I had to hide and keep my mouth shut about it too.
One day my mom and I were fighting and she said, impulsively, that, and am paraphrasing here, I never wanted you, I was forced to have you. I remember that day vividly, as she said that, something in my hears has tore itself off and died. I have forgiven her since and we are now good friends, but we will never be as close as we were before that moment.
This bring me to Canada. My dead dad was apparently alive and at 15 I was introduced to him as he was leaving Russia for good. He invited me to follow him fix moth later supervised by his female friend. At a time only parents and children could be invited by either parents or children across the Iron Curtain. However not out of his love for me but because the woman who was accompanied me was also his mistress with whom he later had two of my half brothers. I was given one night to think about if I wanted to go back or to stay.
My mom said that I would be an idiot if I came back. So, I stayed. I left as a Soviet tourist going to Italy, which took three days by train and interrogation by KGB at the border, and while in Rome, I guess I did was the Romans, I have defected. Run away. With the help from my father and Jewish community, specifically Chabad-Lubavitch mission in Ladispoli, Italy.
After six months of waiting in Italy, I was given green light to fly to Canada, where upon arrival I became landed immigrant. The Rabbis have promptly circumcised me at 17 and shipped me to the Rabbinical college in Morristown, New Jersey where I spent one year, out of four which I was supposed to complete, and run away to Brooklyn, NYC.
While living in Brooklyn I got a job in Elizabeth city in NJ, however that required me driving. So, I asked a friend to borrow his giant American car, lying to him that I could drive, and after making couple of training circles around Brooklyn, left on the highway to go to work, which was a babysitting job for a class of Russian-Jewish kids in some American high school. The kids lived my lessons of basic Hebrew and English, something I barely knew myself, and gave me commemorative mug at the end of the school year. I was invited to teach the following year but by then I was back in Canada as my American dream came to an end. The rest is history.
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2022.01.22 18:43 BikerHackerman2 Noticed that Grimm from Hollow knight looked a bit like stolas, so i fused them
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2022.01.22 18:43 VisserGaming WOTC always pushing Cars
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2022.01.22 18:43 grandpapisherriff Ending a relationship because I am suicidal :(
TW~Suicidal thoughts~ Apologies for the long explanation in advance At the beginning of this month I (21f) had to end a three year with my partner (21m) due to my mental health. We'd been living together for over a year and things were going really well and I'm obviously still in love with the boy and he's my best friend. However I struggle with many mental illnesses, the biggest player being severe depression and I felt that this was slowly taking a toll on our relationship. I've been suicidal since I was in grade 10 and since then there really hasn't been a day where I've thought about it (suicidal ideation). During December I had many good things and changes happen to me; I finally got my highschool diploma, got into a college program I really like, got a job that didn't make me miserable etc. All of these changes triggered me because since I was 15 I had always thought "I won't be here much longer" so I never explored hobbies, interests or made plans so my entire foundation crumbled. It was terrifying and lonely and still is and no one would understand this feeling. I got to the point where I would genuinely wake up and take all my pills to the shower. The thought of putting my boyfriend through that broke me, but I couldn't stop the feeling. It eventually got so bad on the morning of 05/01/2022 that I packed up all my stuff because if anything happened I didn't want him to have to deal with it. Then I met up with him and broke both of our hearts. Now I'm doing even worse because the one thing that made me happy I couldn't have anymore. But it's not fair to base my entire life and happiness around him. I'm so confused and scared all the time but I know he's going to be so much better off without me and my issues I just want to know if anyone has ever had to do something like this?
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2022.01.22 18:43 startupschmartup autopopulate summarized data Into another tab when values present in one column
I've looked and I can't find an answer. I'm also somewhat COVID brained, so I hope I'm explaining this well. I have a bunch of stuff to sell (thousands of items) and I'm keeping track of them in a spreadsheet.
Once in a while, I fish out 100-150 items and share the list a few places. People contact me and tell me they want to buy and give me their PayPal address. I then put their name into the Buyer column on the tab of a spreadsheet.
What I'd like to have happen is on a second tab have it autopulate a summary so that it shows the items each person bought and a summary.
You can visually see what I'm trying to do in the image below. I'm using Google Sheets. Thanks!
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2022.01.22 18:43 Proof_Analysis6429 Have any of you heard of Sodor Fallout?
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2022.01.22 18:43 sadduck515 [Zavvi US] Lego Cargo Train (60198) - $174.99 with code listed (24% ;
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2022.01.22 18:43 digiskunk The Beast of Bladenboro refers to a creature responsible for a string of deaths amongst Bladenboro, North Carolina animals in the winter of 1953–54. According to reports, the animal commonly crushed or decapitated its victims, which were mostly dogs.
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2022.01.22 18:43 MasterYaro27 Anyone have a possible value of this poster? Gifted to me still in wrapper, never opened with a piece of white cardboard to keep it straight.
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2022.01.22 18:43 SpinachLegal Finally got my We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together blanket in the mail!! I love it so much!! I want to wash it because it came from a warehouse and everything but I’m scared of ruining the little fringe/tassels. How do you guys wash your TS woven blankets?
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2022.01.22 18:43 The-Karga Blackhead Removal
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2022.01.22 18:43 EestiMentioned [/r/SatoshiBets] Centaurify - Launching Now on BSC
2022.01.22 18:43 el-harrison New video on my channel
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2022.01.22 18:43 GuimMorral How to fall out of love with someone?
Basically I had depression and 2 suicide attempts and the only person who really cared about me was my best friend. I fell in love with her and now she became a drug for me. She's a lesbian so there's no way this is going to work and it's starting to ruin our friendship.
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2022.01.22 18:43 hoslanmaksucmudur Yeni kutsal varlığım allahuallahım yaratıcım tanrım veya bilimsel kitabım
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2022.01.22 18:43 PolinaPetrovaa PLEASE add RAIDS/TRIALS back for 2022!!!
Looking at old gameplay of raids they looked like SOOO much fun. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE.
Yes one of the devs mentioned bringing back raids in a devstream in like 2020, but nothing has happened since.
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2022.01.22 18:43 Taric25 490 days playing Sdorica: I finally completed the penultimate item mission, about three months to go until I complete the last one.
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2022.01.22 18:43 Stalekalesalad_ Does anyone have 4 store fronts? And maybe 2 boxes? Let’s dm?!
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2022.01.22 18:43 my-name-is-carter ESPN shows that Iowa State lost to Kansas 62-21
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2022.01.22 18:43 ElectronicSpirit7599 Hi
2022.01.22 18:43 manisto009 Any entrepreneurial meetups in Brooklyn?
I recently moved up here from Florida, and am wanting to get more involved with other entrepreneurs in the area. Are there any meetups or events happening on a consistent basis?
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2022.01.22 18:43 Natalie_bxx What I think is going to happen with Brett and Casey…
So, I’m getting this down in writing to see if I’m right by end of season really and I don’t know anyone else that watches so I’m telling all of you! I do think Kara is pregnant, all the heavy coats and actually looks like a bump in some pics. I think the development with Brett and Casey that Haas was talking about is going to be a pregnancy and that will allow Brett to move with Casey to Oregon with a valid reason. I think this is the main reason that they kept Brett and Casey together to cover Kara leaving at a later date, would be harder to write her out if she wasn’t still with Casey. Think that will allow none, one or two of them to come back then in a year or two. Also as a side note I think that is why they are building violet and Hawkins as one of the main relationships on the show will be gone so they will fill a bit of the void.
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